Tonight, for the first time, it began to sink in that I won't be at Belhaven come fall. It had become a habit for me to attend the "future RA" meeting, and this was always a time of the year when I was ecstatic about the upcoming year's RA staff, class load, leadership responsibilities, etc. I feel the same way now, but it's completely different.

I attended the 2009-2010 RA meeting this evening, and it was most definitely a bittersweet time. As I watched the RAs react with delight upon learning their room assignments for next year, I was overwhelmed with a feeling of sadness. I love Belhaven, but more than that I love the people here. I'm going to miss living with them, learning with them (and from them), and growing with them. People at the meeting repeatedly asked me if I was excited about the stage of life that I'm entering, and I told them, of course, yes. But med school is not at all what I was thinking about tonight. It was all Belhaven, and I'm going to be heartbroken to leave my wonderful home of 5 years.